down again

yes, yes, yes i am. i'm honestly not trying to be all emo here, but i really do hate my life. i have too many issues and i've dissapointed too many people. i just don't know what i'm supposed to do in life, why i'm here, what is my purpose? all i do is let people down and fail at stuff. i really don't understand the point of my life. i'm just kind of chilling here, wasting air.
excuse my bad mood, but i'm just feeling really down about stuff today. i stayed home from school. again. and my mom just yelled at me the whole day. and it really sucks because i was doing so well last week, and now it all just came crashing down. like, as much as i am against behavioral medications, i wish they would just do it already. no, making me drink caffine everyday is not going to work. writing stuff in my planner is not going to change anything. i'm freaking screwed up. i honestly had an anxiety attack this morning. over HOMEWORK. what the hell. this is just sucking. so badly.

wow i sound so depressing.
great.