Warning:

energy drinks should be consumed slowly. unless you only need energy for like two hours.


if you don't want to crash, drink it slowly!


















in case you haven't caught on, i'm in major crash mode.
I LOVE ROCKSTAR.

it's pretty crazy

i decided that i'm actually going to try for something. i'm going to audition for stuff. really. i think i've gained a lot of confidence over the past few weeks. yes, i can dance. and yes, i can sing! there, i said it. i can do it. i'm trying to be more positive. hopefully camp rock will work out, or at least spark something, and i'll be able to actually get into the business. don't get me wrong, i'm not saying i'm going to get in. there's about a one and a million chance. but it's still a chance nonetheless. it could happen. and if it doesn't, there's always more auditions. i'm willing to work for it. it's going to be hard, and i'm going to get knocked down. i'll have to suck it up and deal with nasty people. i'll face rejection and heartbreak and failure.

and i can't wait.

it's the start of something new for me.

lyrics of the day!

Turn on that radio
As loud as it can go
Wanna dance until my feet can't feel the ground
Say goodbye to all my fears
One good song may disapear
And nothing in the world can bring me down
Hand clapping, hip shaking, heartbreaking
There's no faking what you feel when you're right at home

Music's in my soul
I can hear it everyday, everynight
It's the one thing on my mind
Music's got control
And I'm never letting go, no no
I just want to play my music

Got my six string on my back
Don't need anything but that
Everything I want is here with me
So forget that fancy car
I don't need to go that far
What's driving me is following my dreams

Hand clapping, earth shaking, heartbreaking
There's no faking what you feel when your on a roll
Music's in my soul
I can hear it everyday, everynight
It's the one thing on my mind
Music's got control
And I'm never letting go, no no
I just wanna play my music
I just wanna play my music

Can't imagine what it'd be like
Without the sound of all my heros singing all my favorite songs
So I can sing along

Music's in my soul
I can hear it everyday, everynight
It's the one thing on my mind
Music's got control
And I'm never letting go, no no
I just wanna play my music

Music's in my soul
I can hear it everyday, everynight
It's the one thing on my mind
Music's got control
And I'm never letting go, no no
I just wanna play my music
All night long

nothing lasts forever

hold on tight,
it's a roller coaster ride we're on.

better?

my life has changed so much since i last wrote in this thing. i've actually been a lot better, with the exception of one mental breakdown, and i really hope things will stay this good. katy, laxie, and i have decided to audition for camp rock 2, which should be insanely fun, even though the chances are super slim. it's been nice getting back into dancing again, and feeling like i have something to work towards. but i feel like these auditions are going to come too soon. i'm already kind of having second thoughts; i don't want to embarrass myself in front of a bunch of amazing hotshot-like dancers. if i can't handle myself, this is going to be a nightmare. so i have to be prepared. all the same, it's going to be epic. but then the question comes up. should i audition for acting as well? voice? can i do it? well i don't know. i love acting and singing, but i just get so nervous! but at the same time, i feel like i could do it if i tried. headshots, resumes, agents, casting, it's all so much. and yet i want it. i want a pretty picture. a full resume. an agent. a cast list with MY name on it. i want to actually be successful at something.

but i don't know if i can.
hm, now i'm thinking.