better?

my life has changed so much since i last wrote in this thing. i've actually been a lot better, with the exception of one mental breakdown, and i really hope things will stay this good. katy, laxie, and i have decided to audition for camp rock 2, which should be insanely fun, even though the chances are super slim. it's been nice getting back into dancing again, and feeling like i have something to work towards. but i feel like these auditions are going to come too soon. i'm already kind of having second thoughts; i don't want to embarrass myself in front of a bunch of amazing hotshot-like dancers. if i can't handle myself, this is going to be a nightmare. so i have to be prepared. all the same, it's going to be epic. but then the question comes up. should i audition for acting as well? voice? can i do it? well i don't know. i love acting and singing, but i just get so nervous! but at the same time, i feel like i could do it if i tried. headshots, resumes, agents, casting, it's all so much. and yet i want it. i want a pretty picture. a full resume. an agent. a cast list with MY name on it. i want to actually be successful at something.

but i don't know if i can.
hm, now i'm thinking.