no way out.

i am officially out of ideas. i have too much on my plate, and i can't even get started. i don't know what to do about anything anymore. i have a shitload of homework from last week that i have to do, i have to not get sick again, find like two or three costumes for a history project, and somehow manage to get like 1000 dollars. all by tomorrow, except the money part. that one's by saturday. panic is starting to set in; it's like i'm paralyzed. i have no idea what to do at all. i'm just going to dissapoint everyone no matter what i do, so why do anything at all? i honestly just want to die right now. i wouldn't have to deal with any of this; i wouldn't have to try to get myself out of this hole i'm in.

it's a fucking grave, folks.