memories

it's weird what kind of things can hold memories. i find that that most random things remind me of stuff. take for example:

rockstar juiced: energy + guava. the only energy drink i actually like. i've tried about a million, thanks to lexie, but this is the only one that isn't gross. i haven't had one in a really long time, but last time i did, my mind was flooded with memories. i felt summer. friends. hershey park. sleepovers and staying up till 6 am. no worries. i got this vision of driving up to ocean grove with carly lexie and becca on a hot august day, going to my first jonas brothers concert. freaking out when we saw the bus. the ONE bus. hearing soundcheck. laughing at all of the girls harassing frankie. being confused by the mobs of people. seeing the jonas brothers walk right past us. the concert. almost passing out from the amount of energy i had. scream offs. "you are mine and i am yours." our pole. everything. all of that, just by taking a sip of a drink. and that's when i realized how much i miss the way things used to be. not even just the whole thing with the jonas brothers and their pre-fame. just summer in general. before i officially quit dance. before i messed everything up again. before regular classes full of mean kids. before things started to get serious. before talks of college and the rest of my life. back when all i had to worry about was who was spending the night and what i was going to wear the next day. my life has changed so much in the past couple of months, and let me make this clear: i hate change. at least i did.
which brings me to my next point.i'm starting to think that i need to get over that. i can never go back to the old days. they are gone, and i should realize that. i need one big change, a chance to start over. something i'll never do here. right now i'm just focusing on bringing my grades up so i can get the hell out of here. i want california or something. far, far, far, away from the past. somewhere where i can't dwell on it. yes, i might be running away from my problems, but i really don't care. so, to all 2 people that actually read this blog, however you might have stumbled upon it, thanks for reading, and feel free to leave your thoughts.